Today I had my last exam. It went pretty horrifically but that's besides the point, I am now officially out of education forever. I have no uni lined up, this is not a gap year, I am now officially a real human being in the real world who has to act accordingly. Now, I've been looking forward to this - as well as being completely fucking scared by it - since basically the moment I went to Manchester's Open Day & discovered the one uni course I maybe, on an off chance wanted to do, didn't exist anymore. Taken as a sign from the universe or whatever I thought fuck it, what's the point in going to uni to do something I don't need to just because I can't think of anything better. I know, I know, you meet loads of people there, it's not about learning blah blah. But I have amazing friends & I intend, in the course of the rest of my life to go on meeting amazing people. I don't know why I need debts, deadlines & 3 years of my life to do that. Uni is great for a lot of people but just not me. I feel homicidal every time I find myself on a campus.
So for now I intend to postpone the huge looming question, "What the fuck do I do now?" At least until September. So I have 3 weeks at home to finish books about Mexican drug cartels, turn my sisters old room into a craft room & listen to the Specials. Then it's off to Berlin & summer holidays until August. Then there's just August... So my internal school-alised clock can begin to panic, but instead of it being about going back to school/college it'll be about what to do with the rest of my life.
Sorted.
your plan sounds sweeeeet! x
ReplyDeletea bit late notice, but congrats jess! the end of ~high school?~ seems so distant to me, but i can totally relate with the feeling "what the fuck do i do now?" now that i'm almost done with uni. somehow, i keep hoping things will only get better, and in a way they have! i truly enjoyed uni in a way i couldn't enjoy high school, although i probably wasted too much time partying instead of actually learning!
ReplyDeletefollow your instincts and i'm sure they won't betray you. in the meantime, enjoy your holidays! also, i think you've just proven that yellow nail polish looks best on redheads. damn you ginger beauties! :D