Ok so I know this is probably uninteresting to anyone but me, but I just can't quite believe that it's happening. So I thought putting it up here would somehow calm me down a bit. I literally cannot believe the things this person is saying to me. I listed some stuff on eBay between Christmas & New Year. It was a lot of stuff & I made a couple of mistakes. In this I wrote it was 100% silk when there's no label. I believed it to be, but I should've stated this. I bought the dress in a charity shop as a dress, rather than a slip and have worn it as such. I never noticed any thread or obvious signs it had been cut out of something else. It said in the listing that it was sheer & a slip style. Jesus, the listing says Slip Dress in big ass letters in it.

The thing is, I don't know what to do. She paid fucking 99p for something! I have bought stuff on eBay for 99p and if it turns up & it's not 100% what I want I just think, "Fuck it, it was only a pound" Isn't that what rational human beings do? I can only assume that she's getting off on making me think the whole of man kind is a screwed up little fuck tard who likes to belittle honest people by scaring them with quotes from the eBay handbook. But there's no way to complain. I've already given her positive feedback so what else can I do? You can't give buyers back feedback. Although I do notice they already have a few comments removed after leaving bad feedback.

I just hate how angry/upset it's making me. What should I do?

Cos in Paris was like a school of how to wear wonderful coats. A majority of the shop was black and everyone had a habit of crowding you to get first dibs even though it wasn't that busy and there wasn't a limit to the clothes. It was a little weird. But I was looking mainly for my mum. She got some amazing stuff, mainly this orange felt dress that I think she should get made in a rainbow of colours & wear only that for the rest of her life. But that's just me. 

Anyway when I saw this I sort of fell in love with the colour. I've wanted something the sort of neon yellow green for a while now but have been told my several people how it would just make me look sick and ill. I don't wholly buy into that whole, "certain people shouldn't wear certain colours" thing since I broke through my orange barrier. That sounded dramatic, anyway, I don't want to look ill or sick but I think this is just the right side of green for it to look ok. The shape is more of a challange but what do you think I should wear with it? I'm sticking to tight at the moment for safety.

Got that new year, new shoe itch. I was torn between getting a pair of Clarks Desert Boots in black or maybe a rad colour or some Dr Marten shoes because their boots have always been close to my heart. I went into a Clarks shop the other day and after scanning the men's sale shoes (I have giant feet) & getting all depressed like I usually do in shoe shops, I found some Desert's in my size & tried them on only to find they have giant bits inside that dig into your feet. I dunno, maybe it's just me, but I'm not really into that.

And then scanning the DM sale for some bargain shoes THESE happened. The Lex Shoe in Petrol. Petrol, like when it leaks onto the pavement and shines out all those crazy colours. Holy fuck. I am literally hypnotised by them. They've been opened in a tab on my browser for a week or so now. Along with these red pony hairs that are a little bit of a pipe dream. All I need is £274 pounds for both. That's the equivilant of like 5 days at work. I've developed a really annoying habit of thinking of costs of things in terms of hours at work. BAD. Do you think I could pass them off as investment shoes?

So my little boxing day treat finally arrived. Disco pants round 2. Weirdly I bought my black pair last boxing day... Oh wow that means maybe by next year I can finally own the gold pair that I was so close to buying 50% off. Anyway, yay for navy! It opens many possibilities of all blue outfits. I do love a head to toe monochrome. Doesn't everyone? 

The first week of 2012 was a weird one huh? I spent Friday in Walk In Centre and A&E waiting rooms. My tongue swelled up & a nurse had to dig my tongue ball/bar out. It's still healing but I'm ok. Also had a mini break down brought on my New Year's early morning "What am I going to do with my life" fit. And have listened to literally nothing but Lana Del Rey this whole year. Is that sad? I've made myself a CD from all her songs on youtube & I just wish she would dress a little better. That is the ONLY thing I am concerned about with her appearance. In other news I'm newly addicted to The Rachel Zoe Project and rewatching The September Issue & Lagerfield Confidential. Much to the dismay of my film accomplice, the bf. Oh well, maybe I'll mature in my tastes one day.

How was your week?

My mum was going to buy this for me for Christmas after she saw it in my gift guide. But £12? For a snow globe? No. When I saw it in the sale I had to get it. & make a gif, because, you know. How shit were the sales this year? I was so disappointed. Zara was completely ransacked already, the offers in American Apparel were so stupidly confusing & loads of places just had shit stuff in the sale with no like 20% off everything offers like I was expecting. What happened to everyone being in trouble? I guess all the good stuff went in the pre Christmas sales...which defeats the whole point. I did get some lovely underwear though, only £5 off. Rubbish.

How did you get on

in the sales? 

So I saw this thread on The Fashion Spot where they'd read 50 books in a year and posted their progress, lists & reviews as they progressed. Working in a book shop I always feel like I should read more & generally I like the idea of being a "well read" person. I set out to do it because I thought it would make me read more interesting & unusual books. It was tough & I admit there were a few poetry books in there at the end but the other day I finished number 50! Unfortunately it did the opposite of what I wanted, I read safe things more because I just wanted to "get through them" as it were. I wouldn't recommend it. Although the freedom I have now means I want to read weirder things so maybe it worked...

A pretty major thing. Especially when half my friends went off to uni & I'm only 19. I'll never say never on the degree front. If I found something I wanted to set my life on I would shell out, move out & do the degree. But to be honest, universities make me homicidal & the students in Bristol are more than enough to put anyone off going to university. We'll see I guess.

So here's me wearing all the things I actually did buy. Two Antipodium dresses, one in the sale, one as a birthday present that I paid half of. Two jumpers, both on sale, one via someone else. One skirt from the Monsoon sale. Plus I was wearing my zara orange trousers, officially the only garment of clothing I paid full price for this whole year. That is pretty fucking awesome. I am still vowed never to set foot in a Topshop ever again but I am looking forward to shopping again. I will however be getting rid of some clothes to do so, trying harder to only buy natural fibres and not going mental buying things I don't actually need. I would recommend everyone trying this!

There's nothing I'm actually saving for. The future I guess. Me & the boy were considering going to Mexico & I guess one day, eventually, in the future I'm going to have to move out. But now I'm working more & earning more I think I need to do something other than fritter it away to make it a worthwhile thing to be spending all my time doing, if that makes sense. Maybe 1/4 - 1/2 of my pay check a month. That seems pretty resonable.

So this one was in my New Year's Resolutions of 2 years ago... & there was a brief spell where I thought everything was sweet & I knew what I wanted to do & I had a thing & something to work towards & a hell of a lot of work to do to get there. I would still love to do this thing but being that my passion has wavered slightly I think I miss the feeling of actually knowing what I want to do more than working towards it. I have a list of jobs now but to be honest none of them are really *IT*. I just wish people would stop saying that I'll "fall into something" because that is how you end up working in retail for 30 years without ever being made a manager.

I still reserve the right to a tirade against the Conservative government ripping our country to shreds once in a while. But maybe just to not talk about shooting people in the head when I see then writing down the details of a book at work to look up & buy online later. Or not be so angry towards every single cyclist in Bristol. I'm sorry but there are too many of you that are shit for me not to generalise. Anyway yes so you see the problem. I have strong opinions... but I think I need to express them less uhr, violently!

What are your

resolutions for 2012?